Theres no fighting back thoughts of what I wish to do,
The feeling of dangleing or falling through the air,
Nothing more than thoughts.
Give me a chance to explain my actions
And if you wait a second or more
Youll see that I had the best interests in mind.
I guess my interests revolved around me.
Does that make me selfish?
I cant explain my feelings.
My thoughts were once things that stayed locked in my mind
Till the day where I found , there are words attached to them.
And as I watched them slip away
I realized that I change when Im with you.
I cannot understand why this means so much to you.
Or why it means so little.
I no longer know which one.
Does that make sense to you?
Ill never understand,
How cold metal can call to me so much?
Or how my world simply disappears
And Im stuck in darkness,
Wishing for you to come find me.
Now that I know that you never will.
Now that I know that Ive pushed you away,
And Ill never feel you again.
I have to tell you this.
I never thought the things I said
Would send you running
But I know better than anyone
Its just so much easier to run.